Endless Days

18 more endless working days until the contract ends for the MAPs...the Management Apprenticeship Program under Sime Darby...the end seems so close yet so far...people has asked me of what my future plans are....and i honestly answer that i do not know...and i know i should be more worried....yet i'm not...i know that the end is looming itself.....and quite a few times i have peered at my unmoving phone with both hope and fear that some unknown caller would call me and present me with an opportunity (hope) or the thrill of yet another interview (fear)....However, I am saddened by the fact that i would not have any reason to come to the office anymore....the no longer mentally planning what to do for the day while dressing for the office...I am much more saddened to not see the friends that i have met on a daily basis for the 11 months....to not have all that anymore is rather unthinkable at the moment...though, i mean now we know that thats where we are heading but no one really voices it out...its there but its always kept at the back of our minds...if only i could minimize them into doll sizes and keep all of them in my pockets....if only....