Endless Days

18 more endless working days until the contract ends for the MAPs...the Management Apprenticeship Program under Sime Darby...the end seems so close yet so far...people has asked me of what my future plans are....and i honestly answer that i do not know...and i know i should be more worried....yet i'm not...i know that the end is looming itself.....and quite a few times i have peered at my unmoving phone with both hope and fear that some unknown caller would call me and present me with an opportunity (hope) or the thrill of yet another interview (fear)....However, I am saddened by the fact that i would not have any reason to come to the office anymore....the no longer mentally planning what to do for the day while dressing for the office...I am much more saddened to not see the friends that i have met on a daily basis for the 11 months....to not have all that anymore is rather unthinkable at the moment...though, i mean now we know that thats where we are heading but no one really voices it out...its there but its always kept at the back of our minds...if only i could minimize them into doll sizes and keep all of them in my pockets....if only....

Not so Conventional....but never wanted to be one...

I was looking at my blog and I figured that its not the conventional way to write up a blog...but i've never been the conventional type..a lot of people say that i do things weirdly...but i see it as eccentric...and anyhow i mean who put these lines of normality in the first place...i mean when these ppl put up the lines of normality...i bet ppl before them were like "wa-at"....u know...Ok fine possibly "normally" comes from the term of the "norm"...just seeing it likes that raises goose bumps...i mean who wants to be part of the norm...i for one want never want to be a part of the norm...someone wise told me to never accept the definition of others in context to your life...if you truly want to be happy....make your own definitions....as the most deserving person to be happy in your life is you yourself....i used to always try to make others happy....and try that i might....its impossible to make everyone happy w/out offsetting another reaction from another person....to say i'm always happy would also be naive of me...but i'm just LIVING MY LIFE!!!!...